No, no, no... I'm not sick in the head. I'm just tired of it all. Tired of having to play catch up every single day. Tired of having to clear the queues. Tired of the world and the situation in general and something in particular.That particular thing would be catching up on all the latest news, tech and non-tech. All the emails being received and require replying to. All those articles I want to read but don't have enough time to read. Gadgets I want to buy but can't afford. The futility of it all. Knowing the latest and greatest but unable to do anything about it.
Friends I can only chat with online but hardly ever see face to face. Can't have a cup of java with and enjoying good, fun, conve! rsation. Frankly, it's depressing.
Will suicide be worth it? I'm still thinking about it. Do I even want to? Can I do it? Can I afford to lose touch of my friends? The updates? The slim chance of being able to communicate? How about all the news? I don't have TV, after all. Will I be able to swallow it? How about losing the status of tech-guru? The go-to tech guy. All pertinent, relevant questions I have no answers for.
I suppose it's because of the sudden surge of workload being driven my way in the office and at home. Or the numerous demands on my time by different mundane activities. The stupidity of it all. I mean, considering those, I shouldn't complain as all of it goes a long way towards starving off any chances of depression creeping up on me. Still... it does take away a lot of my downtime. Downtime I need to be able to think.
I've tried foregoing a lot of it this past week and it all se! ems to make sense. Maybe I just need to step back and view everything from a distance. This is beginning to feel like burn out. Maybe you, my friends, can help me decide... shall I commit electronic seppuku by going offline with my Google Reader, Buzz and Facebook accounts? Or should I not? I still can't decide. Just so I know I'm not sick in the head. ;)
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